song playing: Super Junior's
Mr. Simple
Can I just say I'm loving the song? And the album as a whole? Haha! Of course some songs are stand outs, but I'm loving the vibe of the album as a whole :) Oh, SME, you don't do anything wrong~ EXCEPT not put Super Man in the album!! Whyyyyyyy~ Haha!
So today, I started out with TWO behavior modification projects: one for school, one for a more personal thing :)
The first one (the one for school) is having a regular, daily study time. I need this because I'm not really studying HAHA! I mean, I only study when there's a need for it, and I don't think that's helping out with my life. It's like, I have time to do it, but I spend it on useless stuff (like surfing the net for 35723085 hours). So I have to study! Plus I already said I wanted to graduate Magna Cum Laude (or higher Cum Laude) in college so nothing can stop me from doing what I want in life. :) I said, for my motivator, that if I get to reach my daily quota for the week, I'm able to watch ONE movie at the end of the week which is really nice 'coz I want to have time to watch one new movie, I can finally do it! :)
This week is still the baseline week (so I know how much I need to improve) and I'm using Changing-Criterion (basically the change is gradual so it won't cause too much shock and it can be more permanent, like what I want) so I'm just monitoring myself and my almost non-existent study habits =))
The second one (the more personal one) is losing weight! Well, now, because of the 140 project (and the fact the Denise's debut is in two weeks), I decided to finally do it using what I've learned so far haha!
I didn't make this my official project for 140 since it's harder to explain it -- like, how I want it to happen and shiz :))
Anyways, I have to go to gym everyday (Monday to Saturday) and work out DUH haha! I've allotted four hours per day for this but I'm not that strict on it since my body's still not used to it. And yah, I have an initial goal (for Denise's debut), and an overall goal (for the end of the year) :D
My motivator? For every kilogram I lose, I immediately allot P50 for future use of treating myself. I had this dream that I was buying the AMAZING medium-sized, nude-colored leather bag with a floral lining and I thought I should save up and search for a similar bag and buy it haha! So what better way to motivate myself to save money, right? Plus I think it's an awesome motivator because, like what I heard or read someplace before: FASHION is the MOST EFFECTIVE motivator for a girl to lose weight. It's not making a guy like you or for you to look more likable and stuff; it's the CLOTHES. The thought of actually being able to wear ALL the clothes you WANT to wear and NOT WORRY whether they look good on you or not.
I know the bag isn't really CLOTHING, but my other motivator, if I reach my overall goal (hopefully by the end of the year), is that I'm going on an awesome shopping spree and change my entire wardrobe (or a large portion of it) :D The P50 per kilo lost is only an additional motivator so I can buy something PARTICULAR with the money since the shopping spree isn't really specific :)
It's hard to explain but oh well, I hope whoever reads this blog (i.e NONE) can understand the stuff I said. :)
I thought not talking about it to other people would make it easier for me but I was wrong; maybe that's why I didn't succeed in my first 3513541235 attempts haha! So I'm being open about it, especially to Denise, Isay, Chok (my older brother), and this blog :) I guess it's good to talk about it (or write about it) so I can be more motivated to put another chapter to the story everyday :)
I'm just really motivating myself right now and keep on telling myself that I can do this :) I really feel like right now, I'm gonna be able to do this. I hope this works out because -- like I said a million times before -- I can't wait for my life to happen; I have to do a few (or a lot) of things myself in order for my life to happen.
Oh! And I got advised today as well haha! Our adviser's so nice :)
song playing: Super Junior's 기억을 따라 (Memories)
Ja~~~ Until I have more stories to tell :)
Denise Nichole Baje